machaii_kelp

fight happily

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 21:59:20 GMT

please tell me if i'm wrong first off i'm am one of those people that if you need someone to listen to or anything like that i will be there and ill be your friend okay ill do that even if you just need anything i'm fine with that i do that UNLESS you want to drag me into something i want nothing to do with and i dont want to here about natsy stuff about a person i'm close with sorry dont want to fucking here it if it has aboslutley nothing to do with me and this might be a little contradicting and hypocritical so i might be everyone is though. i'm also sick of just causally waiting around for people that need me i'm sorry like everyother fucking person i want someone to care about me for once and i'm not saying oh boo hoo me i have such a terrible like no i having a wonderful life and i have everything i need but we all want something extra . and I KNOW that i'm not the most gorgeous girl the skinniest the smartest and i am some what comfortable with the fact that i'm not but i still just want someone who can take me for granted and just be there i mean i have my bestfriends and i adore them because they know me and we trust each other i just i have no idea what i want anymore i'm not in a fucking good mood and if this offended anyone i am sorry and i dont mean to be a bitch but some times i get frustrated.

but besides the fact that i'm mad and angryi cant wait until christmas and i hope you can't either.

conquer lovingly

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 22:53:12 GMT

i guess this whole month basically has just sucked. i dont mean to be so pessemistic or down or what ever you want to call it but it's annoying to be like this. i got a puppy and i mean everyone in the world should be excited to find out your getting one but i cried becuase i didn't want to let granite go. I miss him so much i had him for exactly 13 1/2 years of my life and i mean it' sbeen almost a year since we put him down but i can't seem to get myself to be okay with it.

- first off i didn't go with him when he died
- i tried to tell him how much i loved him but i dont think anyone could understand
- i regret everytime i got mad at him

I gues its' normal for everyone to have such a problem with death some people experience it alot more than other and i haven't gone through that much besides my pets and some relatives i didn't know but i can't stand seeing even birds or anything killed becuase i think to much into it and just get to upset over it.

Besides that today school sucked i mean people just know how to make you just cry and sick to your stomach with grief and stupid stuff and i know those kind of things shouldn't get to me but some people just know where it hurts. and way i hope your day wasn't as sucky as mine.

goodnight world

Aggressively Sword Fight

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 01:41:00 GMT

This is really nothing special. Today i've come to the conclusion that I am happy and content. I have what i need and happy with what i have. I've always needed something else but i'm at peace with the fact that i you really can't always get what you want. I'm done obsessing with thing i can't have and i'm not even sure if i want them anymore. but that's all i'm saying for tonight because i am tired and i want to sleep - goodnight world.